i want to know why i’m so stimulated into daydreaming while driving up to the cabin. i love driving, especially highway driving, and find that i just naturally get into my thinking mode. i don’t get into this specific mode when heading out to the grocery store or home from work, but when i’m headed to a place that i love, a place where i feel i belong, where i hold memories, away from the rest of the world, and surrounded by things i can relate to… i fabricate ideas, prioritize projects and dream of a simplified lifestyle hosted by a simplified income. i believe that anything and everything is possible.
in the past, the best part of any trip to the cabin was the idea of my vacation being a time to relax from my nine-to-five thoughts, enjoy the solitude, and allow myself to dream anything from a realistic goal to a very unrealistic way of life.
in the past, the hardest part of any trip to the cabin was putting all these generated thoughts aside on my drive down the canyon and back into the lower mainland; reality kicks in and any dream that i had dreamt was to be archived until the responsibilities of a salary and timesheet were fulfilled.
with this extreme difference in mindsets, from the structure and boundaries to the limitless dreams and back to the structure and boundaries, i found it starting to wear away at me. i wouldn’t get as excited heading up, because i was anticipating the drive back down. and it wasn’t long before i started questioning what was truly a reality to me… is it this paycheque down in a city surrounded by things i don’t need and people i can hardly relate to? or is reality what i experience while up at the lake?
i feel i’ve just recognized that the ability to dream is very much a factor in my idea of a standard of living or quality of life. if i’m going to enjoy anything over the next two months, they’re going to be the monday mornings on the dock with my freshly pressed coffee, free from this previous confusion that i should be anywhere but here; here, where anything and everything is possible.
